Starving Artist

Apparently I am 100% arrogant. Check this out.

Starving Artist
You are 0% Rational, 0% Extroverted, 0% Brutal, and 100% Arrogant

You are the Starving Artist! You are more intuitive than logical, and are primarily guided by your heart and emotions. You are also very introverted and gentle. Of course, this does not mean that you do not have an ego. In fact, you are surprisingly arrogant for someone so emotional and gentle. This is why you are best described as a starving artist. You are very introspective and quite sure of yourself, as any accomplished artist is, yet your views are impractical, guided by feelings, and overly gentle. You probably find math, logic, and similar intellectual pursuits offensive to your artistic sensibilities, and you prefer the open-endedness of artistry because then you know you can never truly have a wrong answer. So really you have no reason to be arrogant, you big doofus, because the skills you value (emotion, spirit, art, etc.) in yourself are valuable only on a subjective level, meaning your arrogance is purely masturbatory. In short, your personality is defective because you are arrogant, introverted, introspective, gentle, and thoroughly irrational...posessing most of the traits needed to be a starving--and useless--artist. So get out there, write a few short stories that are allegories for the spirit, and starve!
To put it less negatively:
1. You are more INTUITIVE than rational.
2. You are more INTROVERTED than extroverted.
3. You are more GENTLE than brutal.
4. You are more ARROGANT than humble.
Compatibility:
Your exact opposite is the Capitalist Pig.
Other personalities you would probably get along with are the Haughty Intellectual, the Televangelist, and the Emo Kid.

ramblings

I experienced my first giving of an HIV test today. We had a testing event in the southern portion of the state. Interesting to be on this side of it, hearing from people and how they feel about the whole thing. Only negative results today. I wonder what I will do with my first positive.

Still trying to work out the kinks of my school financial aid stuff. Slightly feeling like it's not going to happen. It seems like it's so hard to get everything today. Part of me wants to say screw it and just stay at my job, in my schedule, live day to day... But the other part of me soon rips the first part's head off. I have to make it work somehow.

Talked to my friend James from WFU the other day. We rarely talk on the phone and do nearly all of our communication via email. It was nice to talk to him. Sometimes I wonder if I will ever see people from college again. I don't think I want to do a reunion thing.... I'm not so big into large posed gatherings like that. But doing solo trips to each person is hard too... Gets harder with baby and dog in the mix. So, anyway, it was good to talk to him.

This post sucks. Talk later.

20 days later

it's been nearly three weeks since my last post. i've been doing a lot of long-hand writing that's been keeping me busy and away from technology in general.

just had an incredibly annoying phone call with my mother. god, i hope i can pull it together for my own kids and not do the guilt tripping master manipulator thing. it's old. and i identify it in these talks with my mom, but it still burns me! why? when i know exactly what is going on. yet i'm still affected and get off the phone with wet eyes!

long story short-- mom takes another pot shot at a decision of mine. Namely, my choice of childcare provider for owen. i don't see mother-dearest stepping up to the plate to take care of said child. she's not offering to give me oodles of cash so that i could stay home with said child. i feel as though my hands are tied in a situation like this. i am just plain old doing the best that i can... and yet, still with the "i just can't bear to know that he's over there." i mean, honestly, it's not that bad.