I mean, come on. Are these kids cute or what?! I had last week off and am having a tough time coming back to work and leaving them to be raised by others. I know it takes a village... but sometimes guilt gets the best of me. Today is one of those days. If I were an alien coming to earth, I would think it's weird that we have all these kids and then all these hundreds of daycares started to raise them. What?! I mean, it's bizarre. Part of me wishes back to the days of raising kids in community (I guess we kind of are...). I don't know. I could talk and think and philosophize on that all day, probably.

I feel better about the whole "evaluation" thing. Thank you Cate and Conor-- it did help. I know it's all good. I'm glad I'm doing what I'm doing.

I'm feeling weepy today, so I guess I'll keep it short. O-Bird is going to a speech therapist next week. I'm also setting him up to see an OT... thinking there might be some sensory stuff going on (everybody's got some kind of sensory stuff these days it seems like). Could be tied to his inability to use the potty, to his jamming things into his mouth, etc. It's actually really fascinating and I feel oddly lucky to be exposed to all this information. I know he's going to be fine. I'll be fine, too!

It's sparked the creativity bug in me. There are all those crazy 'zines out there... two of my favorites are Hausfrau and Hinky... so I've decided to put together my own. It's completely all for my own sanity, I'm realizing. There is some funny funny shit that happens to you once you are a parent. How do I feel in my mamahood these days? I'm embracing it. I'm loving it. I'm freaking out.